Ahh, Life.

Here I am sitting 2 days before I start my last year at a place that has become home to me. Friends, soccer, Student Council, athletic events, all huge parts of my life. And the beginning of the end is approaching. I'm excited, yes, but scared. Sometimes I just wish I could get through a day, and sometimes I want time to slow down so I can enjoy the precious moments, live in those moments forever. And a certain person brings about indescribable feelings and emotions. I don't really know what I'm looking for right now, probably just ways to keep moving along. But every now and then, there's times that I just never want to end. And these past few days have been one of those times. Oh, to just live here forever, that would suffice. Maybe I'm just looking for a reason to get up every day and go through the monotonous routine called School. And maybe, just maybe, I'm on my way to finding that. I guess we'll just have to wait and see what the future holds.

On my fourth leadership retreat for CCS student and faculty leaders, I had an experience quite unlike any other retreats or getaways. While I was staring at the campfire, 80 other people wrote improvised ballads, sang with each other, laughed, and conversed. Yet in an instant I felt so alone. People faded, and I was left pondering the next few years of my life, and all the life-changing decisions that Mom and Dad just can't make for me anymore. I became terrified with the thought of me going somewhere as a stranger and having to look after myself like I never have before. Then I started thinking, I can't win this battle alone. Help will come from above, as it always does, but I also need people around me to help when the "going gets tough." Then I realized that it has already come. That I have a group of friends that will always help me when I need it most. Realizing that was much easier with a brother's arm around me while I sat curled into my little ball.

So I'm going to need a lot of help surviving whatever is in store for me. One thing's for sure, I am excited about it!

Corey